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Liar Liar Pants on Fire I hope Walt Disney dies in Fire

Sun, 20 Mar 2011 22:47:22 +0100

Outside i see a path
its the one that leaves you behind
the one that breaks youre heart
and destroys your mind.

The rain pours down
like a river falling from the sky
Youre words are lies
nothing that comes out from your mouth is the truth

the truth makes everything seem like a lie.
you left me broken on the side of the road
with nothing, not even hope
you left me, and i got lost into the wild

not even the wild can be so cold
Walt Disney is a liar
he told my generation that we would find love
but all we found was sex, drugs, and unhappiness.

Somehow the rain makes everything better
the wind makes you feel free
so spread out your wings
and let go of everything.

My path

Sat, 19 Mar 2011 17:20:50 +0100

i dream about you every night
sometimes i complain about how im still with you
in the end you broke my heart but im still here
understanding is not the concept anymore

people dont have to understand that you cheated on me
i cant build a palace for us, if i cant forgive you
how can i hang on to something that was never real?
i look at the painting in front of me trying to figure out what the painter wants me to see

i finally understood
that not every path will take you to happiness
just know ill burn the bridge of youre happiness
ill burn youre house apart

i will tear your heart apart
i will forgive you and i will forget you.

Memories

Wed, 08 Sep 2010 04:06:16 +0100

I wont let go of these tears
because you have yet to hear
this fucking bitterness in my heart
beacuse everything has gone and walked away
for i have been a mistake
the act of rape is something i cant forget
i was four with nothing to prove
but for someone to do this
it was my sorrow that made me shed these tears

As i see everything walking away
i hold my hand so tight
trying to hold these tears
that have haunt me all my life

When they died i lost everything that actually loved me
my reason to smile in this cold lonely world
therefore i am a failure
in his eyes
having no home to stay i just walk any direction looking for someone or something to save me

i see my mother being damned
with no life at all
i see her tears streaming down
but i cant do nothing at all
but all i can say is walk away mom
you deserve so much better then this pathetic excuse of a man
ill make sure you find someone better some day
because you deserve so much more.

Oh father why have you left me?
my fucking hatred towards you is killing me
your just shallow
you where never there for me when i needed you the most
but thats why i walk away

I saw my mothers life flash through my eyes
crying to not let her go to sleep...
Her overdose was something i didnt wanna see
she hold my hand so tight
crying to me
please dont let me go to sleep

I walked around the house
and saw that kid hanging from that rope
well, this is my brother with no hope.
i break the window
for him to come out of this eternal sleep
just to find out he had no heart beat
because God where have you been?
i cant see you or feel you?
please let this unhappiness walk away.

They say everything comes back to haunt you
when you came along i thought you where something special
you took my virginity
without telling me
i regret getting drunk that night
but something so wonderful came out of that night
when this news got to my ears
joy came to my heart
but sooner or later the good falls down
just to find out this was all a lie
a wonderful dream i was living
she drank a whole bottle of vodka
just to kill my baby
my only hope,
i was left to rott , you fucking whore.

Going through all this
leads me to think i am now a failure
and that i am nothing at all
but i saw some light
and it was you baby
because your everything i was looking for
your my crystal
please dont try to run away
because i wont let you go
this is love
this is nothing compared to the past
please let this last
because my past has erased with your love
im reaching for a new beginning just with you.

Someone like me and you... P.S. Your not alone...

Wed, 26 May 2010 02:48:55 +0100

Not everyone knows this pain
the one you cant run or even fade
its a passion deep in the heart
and if your lost theres no chance in moving on

Its a feeling that makes your heart beat fast
its a feeling that cant last
its the
way she makes the whole wide world shine
but in the end i know its not right

its just not a feeling that you can push away
because in the end your head thinks your this way
your not born with this feeling
but your head says this is the way

its not the only path you can take
and this all happened
because you havnt got the love you needed
in the end nobody is there
and you feel alone

its a powerful hole
that sucks you in
and you cant get out alone
its hard and im fighting

in the end nobody know how this feels
and your parents wont wanna hear
that they failed
and raised someone like you.

My new heart. . .

Wed, 26 May 2010 02:44:00 +0100

These tears arnt lies
they run down because there real
when i feel alone
all i do is pray and cry

because nobody is here
people dont understand
that when i feel mad and i might act different

but its a sign that i need someone more then ever
because my life is in my pocket
i either keep it inside or i wont let you see at all

but when i keep it inside everything falls apart
all my dreams shader
all my friends leave
and its living my life again
and letting it fade away, again and again

My head heats up and thinks of everything ive been through
and its not a beautiful view
my broken heart
is now a fake real heart.

i never knew i would get back home
i should have ran
when i had the time
when i had the ability of not having a broken heart
maybe ill make it throught it all...

Theres more

Fri, 21 May 2010 01:55:24 +0100

My illusions are vanished
my word are swallowed by the ocean
the things i always said
my actions
they were always unexplainable
the feelings i had deep in my heart
just to find out they were all lies
they were illusins of thsi world
shadows of darkness
i realized i was surrounded by people like you
the kind of people that lie there way through
just to find love and happiness
the sad part is that your whole life is based on lies
andthose people sooner or later fall
there lives come crashing down
they fall apart
and sooner or later they dies inside
the saddest things ive seen in my 14 years of life
was physical death but the worst, is the people that die inside
just to know your broken inside
but you couldnt find the right time
to put it back together
to find themselves with reagrets
and failures in life
because they couldnt stop for a min and think...
is this what i want?
Im i happy?
Have I failed?
Take a minute to realize your life
to make it amazing
dont settle for less
theres more to life then just pain..

5-15-10

Fri, 21 May 2010 01:46:54 +0100

All my life in one place
losing my mind
just trying to find the other part of me
trying to see who i was
and where i was heading
just to find out all i ever wanted to be
was right in front of me
as the joy rised
my happiness is unexplainable
because that night i said everything
i let the tears go
all the hate i had towards everyone
just walked away
because all i wanted was to be happy
and thats all i got
i know now i cant make it without him
i wont let go
i promise...

I let you go...

Fri, 21 May 2010 01:42:59 +0100

I saw my reflexion through your eyes
My whole past came back In a second i found everything
And it all came to you
Maybe this was a lie but It was worth the moment
This day wont come back
And im okay with that
Because as much as it hurt i will never miss you
I have God And thats all i need
You can move on
I wish you the best
But your not hurting my chest
Your lies
My disappointments
We will never be friends again.

I want my heart to bloom...

Fri, 21 May 2010 01:35:41 +0100

My thoughts are swallowed
by such unhappiness i felt in the past
how every second of my life went so fast.
I tried holding on
but i found this huge hole in my heart.
I couldnt get out of it
i was in a huge depressing fight.
It wasnt you
it was me
because i was such an idiot in falling into your lies.
Im fighting for my life
because i wont let go
being with God makes my heart rise and glow.
I want my heart to grow and bloom into a beautiful flower
i just wanna fight
to reach the impossible thats possible.

My Sunshine

Sat, 24 Apr 2010 19:07:13 +0100

All of a sudden theres two roads
and only one way i can choose.
i cant live both,
Im so powerless over my own life.
how did i end up here?
i knew who i was
i was finally happy
but when you walked up in my life
it was over
all i felt where tears running down
and all of a sudden even my best friend turns her back
"Because im acting different"
im falling apart, what do u expect?
i cant last a minute anymore without dying inside
the sad part was that you where my sunshine,
the moment you walked away all i saw was a dark night
wheres my sunshine?
it walked away.