Just because YOU walked away
doesnt mean i have to chase you
from the fact that you hurt me
scares me way beanith 
and i cant face you
because all you did is make me feel sorrow and hate
toward everyone
i hate this feeling in my gut
as if you were never gonna be there right now or ever
"but mother why did you do this to me?
was it me?
no please dont leave
dont make me feel hate in my heart
dont let me go"
because mother i looked up to you
i will never repeat ypur mistakes
i dont wanna be like you...
i wont, i rather die cold and alone
then ever even thinking to be like you