Outside i see a path    
its the one that leaves you behind
the one that breaks youre heart
and destroys your mind.

The rain pours down
like a river falling from the sky
Youre words are lies
nothing that comes out from your mouth is the truth

the truth makes everything seem like a lie.
you left me broken on the side of the road
with nothing, not even hope
you left me, and i got lost into the wild

not even the wild can be so cold
Walt Disney is a liar
he told my generation that we would find love
but all w...
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i dream about you every night
sometimes i complain about how im still with you
in  the end you broke my heart but im still here
understanding is not the concept anymore

people dont have to understand that you cheated on me
i cant build a palace for us, if i cant forgive you
how can i hang on to something that was never real?
i look at the painting in front of me trying to figure out what the painter wants me to see

i finally understood
that not every path will take you to happiness
just know ill burn...

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I wont let go of these tears
because you have yet to hear
this fucking bitterness in my heart
beacuse everything has gone and walked away
for i have been a mistake
the act of rape is something i cant forget
i was four with nothing to prove
but for someone to do this
it was my sorrow that made me shed these tears

As i see everything walking away
i hold my hand so tight
trying to hold these tears
that have haunt me all my life

When they died i lost everything that actually loved me
my reason to smile i...
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Not everyone knows this pain
the one you cant run or even fade
its a passion deep in the heart
and if your lost theres no chance in moving on

Its a feeling that makes your heart beat fast
its a feeling that cant last
its the
way she makes the whole wide world shine
but in the end i know its not right

its just not a feeling that you can push away
because in the end your head thinks your this way
your not born with this feeling
but your head says this is the way

its not the only path you can take
and this a...
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These tears arnt lies
they run down because there real
when i feel alone
all i do is pray and cry

because nobody is here
people dont understand
that when i feel mad and i might act different

but its a sign that i need someone more then ever
because my life is in my pocket
i either keep it inside or i wont let you see at all

but when i keep it inside everything falls apart
all my dreams shader
all my friends leave
and its living my life again
and letting it fade away, again and again

My head heats up and ...

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My illusions are vanished
my word are swallowed by the ocean
the things i always said
my actions
they were always unexplainable
the feelings i had deep in my heart
just to find out they were all lies
they were illusins of thsi world
shadows of darkness
i realized i was surrounded by people like you
the kind of people that lie there way through
just to find love and happiness
the sad part is that your whole life is based on lies
andthose people sooner or later fall
there lives come crashing down
they fall a...
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All my life in one place
losing my mind
just trying to find the other part of me
trying to see who i was
and where i was heading
just to find out all i ever wanted to be
was right in front of me
as the joy rised
my happiness is unexplainable
because that night i said everything
i let the tears go
all the hate i had towards everyone
just walked away
because all i wanted was to be happy
and thats all i got
i know now i cant make it without him
i wont let go
i promise...
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I saw my reflexion through your eyes
My whole past came back In a second i found everything
And it all came to you
Maybe this was a lie but It was worth the moment
This day wont come back
And im okay with that
Because as much as it hurt i will never miss you
I have God And thats all i need
You can move on
I wish you the best
But your not hurting my chest
Your lies
My disappointments
We will never be friends again.
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My thoughts are swallowed
by such unhappiness i felt in the past
how every second of my life went so fast.
I tried holding on
but i found this huge hole in my heart.
I couldnt get out of it
i was in a huge depressing fight.
It wasnt you
it was me
because i was such an idiot in falling into your lies.
Im fighting for my life
because i wont let go
being with God makes my heart rise and glow.
I want my heart to grow and bloom into a beautiful flower
i just wanna fight
to reach the impossible thats possible.
...
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All of a sudden theres two roads
and only one way i can choose.
i cant live both,
Im so powerless over my own life.
how did i end up here?
i knew who i was
i was finally happy
but when you walked up in my life
it was over
all i felt where tears running down
and all of a sudden even my best friend turns her back
"Because im acting different"
im falling apart, what do u expect?
i cant last a minute anymore without dying inside
the sad part was that you where my sunshine,
the moment you walked away all...
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As i saw you walk away
everything came back
as if nothing ever happen
maybe we were never meant to be
maybe we never should have met
everything haunts me down
the thought of you makes me shiver
it makes me wanna run away
you have so much control.
as i see my life changing because of you
everything starts falling down...
i start acting different
and i start trusting no one
not even myself
and everyone walks away
because one mistake i made
one ...
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The mystery behind a person
all the lies that eat them up
all there fake words
just to know they grew up a different way they wished they had
from there regrets 
all these secrets they keep inside 
in the end
they didnt know enough was enough
only from a mistake they took a while back in there life
the only reason they didnt know right from wrong,
was because they never got the love they want.
In the end everyone is human
and can make mistakes
as long as you say sorry to the person you hurt 
then you ca...
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She said she never cared
you can see in her eyes all that hate and pain
the reason she thinks shes not worth it
and the only reason she smokes her life away
been smoking since she was 10 to find the love she can never get
to find herself alone and cold
she asked herself
"when did i give up on my life?
when did my life take the wrong turn?"
and it was because she took the wrong way
that same day, 5 years ago... 
I wonder if she ever had regrets 
that pulled her mind away 
and only caused her to get lost...
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They say its wrong

should i fallow my heart?

or my mind?

because this face is really taking over me

they say youll never be accepted

but my heart beats for it

i question myself

and ask "is this the way for me?" 

they say God will never forgive you

but hes love

not a greek god

i believe he will always be with me

but should i question this feeling?

should i let society kill me this way?

This is all my mind can take

sooner or later my heart will fade 

from this confusion, one person brought up...

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As i wait in my front door
for you to show up, once again. 
You left for a month
and i never heard a word you said
i closed my eyes and tears would run down
because dad i miss you with all my heart
you always told me to be true
and thats all i want for my life
no more fairy tales
only reality that will make me stronger
because in reality life isnt always what we think it is
its more than that
theres love, happiness, and those people that care
but these souls die because they think nobody cares
and there l...
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As far as love seems to be
i will wait for it to come
no more false pretenses,
no more lies,
i am certain it will come
i just need patience in my life
with all the let downs, i will wait.
for that lovely day to come. 
when you and me will be happy
with each others love
it wont be easy
but true love will wait
i am certain those are the feelings i have towards you. 
 
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As i saw my dream,

i ran away far far away

because once upon a time

my heart was broken

it felt like my world was coming down

i never understood why.

but it came to a point

where all of a sudden i took the wrong turn

i did everything to take away this pain

i made every mistake

everything i swore to never do

the next day thats all i did

and now i just wait

in this cold night

that one day all be happy again

waiting for you to come again.

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I always had trouble to trust anyone

but then you come out

and destroy everything i had

i understood the first moment i saw you

you arnt the person you make people believe you are

i always told myself "i can change her"

i was just lieing to myself

because now i understand your not the person for me

and only you can make yourself a better person

not me, not that kid you fell in love with, only you

because your not the girl i want you to be...

im tired of making myself feel that i need you

i dont... 

im ju...

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Just because YOU walked away

doesnt mean i have to chase you

from the fact that you hurt me

scares me way beanith 

and i cant face you

because all you did is make me feel sorrow and hate

toward everyone

i hate this feeling in my gut

as if you were never gonna be there right now or ever

"but mother why did you do this to me?

was it me?

no please dont leave

dont make me feel hate in my heart

dont let me go"

because mother i looked up to you

i will never repeat ypur mistakes

i dont wanna be like you...

i wont, ...

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Everything i do
Is always wrong for you
I try to walk away
But you keep holding on
I cant move on like this
My life is valuable too
And all your memories 
Keep playing in my head
As if it was a video caset 
Can you please stop?
Im trying to rest
And end this case.

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I never wanted to hear the reality

i failed as a friend

and i hate that

and now i hate him

he was everything to me

but you took that space

he was in my heart 

but now its you

i cant believe i was so blind

i couldnt see your life

i always thought you were okay

but i know it hurts you

i dont get why you wanna save him

if he already let u fall

what the point of saving him? 

if he already made you miserable

why be friends?

is there a need?

this confusion hunts me down

because your in need

i miss the old days

when ...

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I never thought i would care for anyone

as much as i care for you.

The feelings you brought

was something that i needed that time

when i didnt know nothing about God...

You brought that reality to me

the way you would talk to me

i knew you were important to me

We told each other secrets so easily

since the first time we talked we broke down

we told each other our lifes

and i swear you are the only one i tell everything too

I disliked you in the beginning

i thought, you thought you were better then me

but ...

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Ive never felt so much pain

every moment i feel like im gonna faint

i dont want to be in this nightmare

because every night my heart breaks

i have to let go 

these unesesary feelings

i just need God again

because if i dont have him

in reality im nothing

i love him

but something pulls me away

every minute of my life

i fear for everything

but if i have him 

i have nothing to fear

its more of a understanding

and believing hes here

because i dont wanna be in this nightmare

i dont want my heart breaking

i want ou...

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I cry every moment 

for this to end

it never took me no where

but its killing me inside

i feel everything is gone

i cant feel anything

its just the way i react

there is a certain time

i just walk away

tired and finished

because my heart aches

these tears are now stains

because this feeling

cant walk away

and i just  cry

for everything to be alright.

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I lay down

and i sink,

thats where my love is

where my dreams are waiting

waiting too come true

life is about waiting

and it harms me within

patience is everything

but if you have nothing

then  there is nothing to wait for..

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You know im here for you

even though i cant fly and be there

but my heart will always follow you

because your one of the people i truly love

i looked and looked

to find something new

to find somebody that would actually be here

i found nothing

nothing that was true

until i found you...

i swear i would believe 

the person that said love isnt true

but love is everything

everything a human wants

so i wouldnt think twice to fly

because if it means going back

it means my life has everything i lost

all my dreams, ...

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i walk

and walk

i see no light

just another fight

i see nothing for me

i see nothing...

im blinded from heartache 

From everything you have taught me

you wont come home again

you were everything to me

and ive said it over and over again

but i see no light

i am blinded from feeling numb

from thinking everything is alright

from not caring 

and from just walking away...

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I see a women with regrets
she has nothing left
only to drink alone
trying to win something she lost before.

All she did was run away 
from her children
which are now nothing for her
because they want nothing with her
and all she did was drink her life away.

All she said was goodbye
eight years ago
but she found hate in her heart
knowing she did something wrong.


She gave up everything she had
to have them back
and love from a mother is too strong
for a loveless child to avoid.

All i see is a women with fea...
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What do i do
when im breaking down,
when im falling
and i cant touch the ground
i have found 
the way out of my life
the way to survive
to be revived
to live for something
othe then nothing
i found the love
the one i looked for in thirteen years
there is no point in giving up
because what youve been fighting for is coming along 
just believe 
and you'll be found
to find a way to survive
and come out of hiding
to show us what you got.
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The only reason

i run away 

from every little thing

is because my heart aches 

my heart breaks

i had everything

but over time it all came down

as the past

it went so fast

i never valued anything

i took everything for granted

as if everything would be here, no matter what

but everything dies over time

my heart turned cold

as if someone sold it.

The end is near

and i fear of everything

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I live my life
down the road
wanting more
my life isnt the same
i feel like trash
and i know im not okay
i just wanna find who i am
and where im heading
i cant lie anymore 
i am who i am
i cant stop fighting
im not the person you think i am
i wanna live my life
for myself
not for you or anyone else
i want peace in my heart
but thats the part...
i cant understand 
what happen to my life?
it was going great
until that dark night
i couldnt take it anymore
i took everything out
just wanna cry
untill i finally die
thats...
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Take this beautiful day
dont let it go away
your the special one
dont let no one take that away
because your special
in all the ways
leave the bad habits
and take life day by day
dont get mad
because it makes me sad
to see you hurt.
All the pain
let it fade away
am begging for you too stay
your making me fade away
because what you did hurt in all the ways...
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I sit here in the beach
so calm, so peacefully
why cant life be like that?
The way you make my heart beat 
the way you make me feel
its just something new
but mom who are you?
who are you truthfully?
I just want sit here 
lay here
but imagine with happiness?
it would be a better place
just pay attencion to my case
and just say sweet stuff
no more hurtfull stuff
my heart is breaking
without you knowing
im going in the road without you
i have been waiting for you 7 years
but there gone
im gone
its over 
now you g...
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You always make me smile
i smile until i get tired,
for you i would smile an eternity 
you give me the love
for me and others
i miss you
i miss your smile
sit next to me for a while
dont ever leave me
like u did for a while
the things i dont want to remember
of our friendship



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